Rant

Any1 here who can relate please 🙏🏼🥺
Not sure what it is with some women toxic ASFFF 🙄
You stay single years work on yourself feeling great then you feel your ready to date again it's going great over time then you meet up more and start been under same roof together a bit longer & more everything is going absolutely great UNTIL they start moving differently - it starts unfolding bit by bit you let a few things slide & you get back on track you really see yourself been with this woman you want a life the lot with her she's so beautiful & all you've ever wanted then BOOM out of no where - starts talking to other girls & telling them they love them at this I'm like WTAF - as far as I were aware we were great she'd send loving deep quotes & poems & random kisses & wanting showers together making me feel confident & loved & growing closer together going out doing things together & cooking together making plans !! To her saying in messages she's in love with with another woman. - the woman says I'm in love with you my so called fiancee says it back - then I find more MSG's on her messenger to other girls flirting and a video with no top on talking in the video. & It's hit me like a ton of bricks heads up my arse & yeah I'm on anonymous account as people may know her & I CBA with shit 😞😔 feel a mug and disappointed. Point is I'm 9 months sober & on my weight loss journey & she didn't tell me she had an issue with alcohol 😔 so been some set backs it's been a rollercoaster 😞 I thought I could help and support her thru it tho. Seems that wasn't the case & when she drinks she's such a different person it's horrendous. But trouble is I love her and I'm at a loss. 💔 We had a break before all this came about and I thought by time she got home she was asleep but turns out she ignored me and was on tiktok live and her mate saying Ur better off single mate and all this I was like wtf 😒